There are so many different seasons in life. In order to navigate through them in a healthy way, it’s important not to just get through it, but to work through it as it comes. We could either put our heads down and hope the storm passes soon or keep our heads up and deal with the waves as they come.
Our emotional and physical health are indicators of what’s going on inside of us. Sometimes it feels like it’s too much to deal with so we ignore it and pretend we’re fine. But that only leaves bigger issues to deal with later and trust me, later will come someday.
I know a lot of people who sweep things under the rug and don’t deal with it and eventually they become overwhelmed or they are not themselves because of all the hurt, pain and frustration that has built up over the years. And that so called rug or avoidance is ridiculously bulging with issues.
I was one of those people who felt overwhelmed with things and didn’t deal with everything as it came. Instead, I would convince myself to move on and not let it get to me. But eventually it would all come crashing down and I was forced to deal with what was inside of me. You see I was always a runner. I learned how to run from a very young age so I could escape the chaos and pain of my childhood. I didn’t realize how I carried this into my adulthood. Keeping busy and running from here to there made it easy to not deal with what I was feeling or not even to notice what was going on inside of me.
Recently I’ve had a lot of life changes and God slowed me down. I saw and felt what was inside of me and it was a fork in the road, I could either get busy and ignore it or sit still and deal with it. I decided it was time to deal with it head on. I’m not going to lie; it’s been really hard. There’s been a lot to deal with. I had to really surrender to God and the healing process. Prayer, journaling, reading the word, books, curriculum, podcasts and all I could get my hands on to really work through what’s in me has been the hardest and best thing for my mental, spiritual, and physical health.
Sometimes I still want to escape or run from it, but God has held me through it and showed me how to be vulnerable and raw and allow him to work in me, so he could work through me in a greater way. I know it’s the only healthy way forward. I no longer want to ignore what’s there and just push forward. I want to be the healthiest me I could be, not just for me but for my husband, children and someday grandchildren. I want them to know and see the love of God shine so brightly through my life that it reflects His love! I don’t want to have hidden pain and hurt anymore. I want to live life to the fullest reflecting John 10:10. But we could only do it without all the burdens that so heavily weigh us down.
Whatever you have buried, dig it up! Uncover the hidden burdens, and rediscover who God truly made you to be. Be free of all the past pain so you could spread your wings and fly my darling! God has a glorious future ahead for you. Go and live it fearlessly and be your beautiful, genuine self, burden free!
